You Need Solitude to Resist.

I can't cope with the blitzkrieg in my feeds. Violence is being drafted for every vulnerable human and institution within the country. I am disoriented, I am afraid, and I feel powerless. But I can't stop myself from mindlessly watching my feeds—how can I ethically ignore the deterioration of my country?

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I am working on a project that can save lives. It will not depose Trump, but in its careful arrangement of text and pixels there is an opportunity to fight violence. If a single person is able to strengthen themselves, this work is valuable.

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I can't commit to action when my eyes are transfixed on social media. There have been no moments of such grave importance that my immediate response is necessary. This is not cynicism. Rather, it's a solemn admission that my individual power in the world is incredibly minute. Through this recognition is an immense capacity for resistance.

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Solitude is resistance. Every morning when I wake up, I log into an OS X profile disconnected from my online accounts. I work. Every night, I again withdraw, squeezing whatever blood is left in my creative stone. Sometimes I am too withered to work, in which case I stream a movie or read a book. I really love the tv show Yuri!!! On Ice, whose story of (queer?) athletes nourish my need for something, anything, that demonstrates values of love and physical artistry.

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I can feel so guilty for shutting myself out of the internet. But the grim reality is that you and I need to survive at least 4 more years. We need endurance and focus. By seizing time and attention, we carve the space of resistance. Yes, streams of information will be central to our work, but parsing these streams itself calls for radical practice.

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Shut off your phone for a bit. Log-out of Twitter and Facebook. Vent to a friend. Read a poem. Eat disgusting food. Do whatever it takes to alleviate your anxiety. When you feel animated, look at your skills and your immediate community, separate them from the crushing context of federal decay: What can you do? Who needs help? When crisis comes, how will you react?

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Fight the little fights first. The big fights are easier that way.

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I send you all so much love. May you find the peace you need, to create the peace you deserve.